Celebration!


It’s ocurred to me that I’ve posted several times about things I’m dissatisfied with — not journaling frequently, not celebrating all the Sabbats, etc. There’s really nothing wrong with that. It’ll happen from time to time. But I want to take a moment to celebrate all the things I am really, really pleased with — and there are many. I think it’s important for me to mention the good things too. 🙂

  • In the past two months, I’ve gotten a lot of knitting done. I’m most of the way finished a blanket that I started a year and a half ago. I’m almost at the end of the third, and last panel. Then I just have to stitch them together and do some touch-up work and it’ll be done!
  • I have AWESOME family and pretty good friends.  I’m especially extra grateful  for my Mom, my grandmother, my Dad, Phire, SJ, and our pets.
  • My Mom’s cat, who was very ill seems like she’s going to be okay.
  • My Grandmother bought me chocolate and hair clips. She collects her easy open medicine bottles and her spare food storage containers and gives them to us. She’s also bought me clothes recently.
  • My Dad drives us to run errands at least once a month most months and drives me to doctor’s appointments frequently. He bought us sunflowers, bottled water, and decaf coffee, and he bought me clothes recently.
  • My Mom is kind and willing to go to bat for me. She bought stuff for me to use in Florida (I didn’t go — long story) and is sending it hear.
  • Phire and SJ are incredibly sympathetic and kind, and they go above and beyond looking after me when I need it (which I sadly do sometimes these days).
  • Our pets are amazing, friendly, playful, cuddly, and caring.
  • I LOVE or beautiful house and property.
  • Phire and I planted the sunflowers my Dad gave us yesterday (with phone assistance from my Mom — the Master Gardener).
  • I tied back the Rose of Sharon that has been blocking the side of the house. I think it’ll need a more permanent solution (the stakes and twine are pretty weak), but it’s done!
  • Phire and I also trimmed the front hedges, at least somewhat.
  • Phire and his friends collected someones junked pickup truck bed cab. We’re going to repurpose it to give the feral cats someplace to shelter in the winter. He and I moved it across the backyard.
  • I applied to college in April. Sadly, I didn’t get in, so
  • I’m applying to a second college now! Phire helped me with getting stuff together for it.
  • SJ ran to the store today to get food for us and he cooks awesome meals for me.
  • I got my first shot of Prolia for osteoporosis treatment yesterday. While it was a really rough day, and I’ve had some minor side effects, so far, so good!
  • I’ve been reading good books lately, and a lot of them.
  • I updated, edited, and added to my blogs yesterday, making major headway in a huge overhaul of them.
  • CampNaNoWriMo July has begun! 🙂
  • I think I blogged more in the last 24 hours than I have in the last two months. 😉
  • I have SO MUCH more energy than I used to on most days, at least for now.
  • I’m also generally healthier than I’ve been since I got sick.
  • Last week, I washed all the dishes in the house. ALL of them. Trust me — that’s no mean feat. And I pulled it off!
  • Phire rearranged the living room and it looks better that way.
  • I’m largely more productive than I’ve been able to be for years.
  • I can exercise a little sometimes now.
  • And then there are the million and one other things I’m grateful for — love, food, a roof over my head, running water, electricity, air conditioning, drinking water, internet, cell phones, books, journals, as much of my health, mental acuity, emotional well-being, and mobility as I have, my Gods, Ancestors, the faeries, my guides, and for happiness, and beauty, and so many, many other things. 🙂

I’m sure there are other things I forgot to mention.

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And — they’re off! Sort of…


Today is the first day of July’s CampNaNoWriMo. Actually, yesterday was because I’m writing this in the early morning hours of July 2nd in the Eastern Timezone. But since I haven’t gone to sleep yet, I’m calling it today. At one point, I still thought I’d get my word count goal in for the day. Now I’m kinda doubtful. But I’ll see. I’m still super excited though, because I’ve been looking forward to this, I completed the last CampNaNoWriMo, and I still have plenty of time. I also think it’s totally understandable that I didn’t get started yet, because I got SO MUCH else done today. Yesterday. Whatever. Anyway, I’m blogging partially because they’re been things I wanted to say, and partially because I feel like I might not get a lot of blogging done during CampNaNoWriMo (and  know I’ve been too busy and otherwise occupied to blog a lot during the last couple of months). But looking back, it seems like I actually blogged a lot more frequently than I usually do these years during the last CampNaNoWriMo. So who knows how much I’ll blog during the next month and in the future after that?

Anyway, we’re off! Good luck to everyone participating, and congratulations attempting what I know is a mammoth undertaking for most folks (myself included). If you’re writing for it this month, may you pen, type, or dictate lots and lots of words! For those who aren’t enjoy watching the ride! 🙂

A Hopefully Quick Post of Minor WordPress Griping


A few months ago, I was pretty pissed off at WordPress. I had forgotten about it but now I remember. And I’m angry again. First, they changed the layout for the dashboard. That irritates me, but I can live with it. Then, the app was malfunctioning on two phones with two different OS’s. I’m now using a third party app that words a lot better, but has it’s issues when I blog from my phone. And, for a while, the actual wordpress site was malfunctioning on laptops.

But the thing that really, really got me was that it now seems difficult, if even possible to include share buttons for different social media sites on the .com wordpress sites — as opposed to the .org one. There does seem to be a complicated way to do it…maybe. WordPress, I am not good with technology. I don’t even think I have the hardrive space required to port over to .org hosting. I definitely don’t know how. And no, WordPress, don’t tell me how easy it is. Furthermore, I can’t afford to pay for a url for my blogs — I especially can’t afford five urls. And, if I ever did pay for a url and then couldn’t afford it later, all that I’d written would go kaput.

Now, on at least two of my blogs, several widgets aren’t working. These are the widgets that make following easier. Specifically those widgets. Maybe it’s because of the themes I’m using. Maybe it’s a glitch on my computer alone. Maybe it’s even showing up on other computers.

But that and the lack of sharing buttons seem to me like a subtle, but hostile way to keep blogs followers down unless they switch to .org hosting as opposed to .com hosting — and thus a way for WordPress to make more people pay them more money. Now, don’t get me wrong, I’m glad to be able to have as many blogs as I want, and I’m grateful to be able to blog for free at all, but I am really, REALLY irritated about this.

The Great Blog Overhaul of 2015 (otherwise titled, “Whoo-HOO!!”)


Right now I have five current public blogs. Count ’em. FIVE. Mind you, most of them still don’t have much on them yet, but they’ve all at least got something. And I spend hours today overhauling and updating them. There’s only one that I didn’t really touch. For all the rest, I did some major work. It may not seem like much, but it was for me. Mostly what I did consisted of creating new pages, including breaking some of the pages I already had down into multiple pages on each blog. I also wrote and posted several new pages. Most of these pages are identical to each other from blog to blog, or at least very similar. But I wrote at least one lengthy page specific to one blog. I now have a separate page on almost all of my blogs that links to the other ones. I have a page on most of them talking about people I mention frequently. And I have some pages that have similar information phrased differently on some of my blogs.

I changed the wordpress theme of “Island, Ocean, Sky” from “Brand New Day” to “Somethng Fishy”.  And even though I still don’t have any posts on that blog yet, I wrote a new page for it expounding on the title, which you can read here. Hopefully, I’ll put at least one post up over there soon, but I can’t promise it. I also changed and edited some of the widgets I have on there.

I tried to fiddle with the widgets on Seaside Symphony too, but I was only partially successful. I remember having problems with that before, and by the time I got to it tonight, I had been at it a long while so I just gave up temporarily in frustration.

I added pages about the other people I write about, one describing a new header photo, pages linking to my other blogs, and an explanation for why and how I cross-post.

Yeesh, even as I’m typing this blog post, I’ve gone back to adjust and fix things.

I also did some editing, almost all of pages, but I did do one blog post. I fixed typos and changed places where I used the wrong word. I also added missing links and I updated some out of date information.

This is something that I’ve wanted to do for a REALLY long time, so I’m uber-excited about it! But I knew it would be a massive undertaking and I also mostly blog from my phone these days, which really in’t conducive to most of that stuff. So I’ve been putting it off. But not today!

There is still so much more that I want to do, for example, adding new categories and going back and putting the appropriate posts into those categories, as well as any new ones, but I think I made incredible progress and I’m incredibly pleased with it.

That’s not all I did today, either. I may write a blog post about that too, but I may not. We’ll see. Honestly, there are SO MANY blog posts that I want to write right now. We’ll see if I get any of them done soon. 🙂

 

Once More Into the Breach


Well, hopefully more than once more. I’ve been lax about blogging lately. I figure I’d better get to it now because, as busy as I’ve been, things are about to get even busier.

None of this is helped by my sleep schedule being all over the place. That’s not good for me in general, but it’s really not good for Addison’s Disease.

I have a doctor’s appointment tomorrow that has been rescheduled multiple times due to complications. I’m getting a shot of medication to treat osteoporosis.

In two days, July’s CampNaNoWriMo starts. Since I finished the last one, I’m hopeful that I can with this one too. I’ll work on the same novel I’ve been working on and I’m hopeful that I’ll complete this one too. I set it up almost as soon as I could and I’m aiming for at least 10,000 words again. Last time, I cut it close, but I only actually wrote for it for nine days out of April and I still finished on time. It was a first for me meeting my word count goal for it, so we’ll see if I can do it again.

Phire’s and my anniversary is in July as well. A friend of ours is moving on the same day, so we’re going to try to help him move — provided all hell doesn’t break loose. Fortunately, he’s only moving within the same building, which should make life a lot easier.

I should also attempt to make and go to more doctors in July — we’ll see how that goes. And utilities and bills need to get dealt with.

I’m planning on applying to college in July as well. I mentioned here that I applied to Berklee College of Music. Unfortunately, I didn’t get in. I will try again someday. In the meantime, I’m applying to another college I’d really like to go to that has rolling admissions. Hopefully, I’ll get in and if I do, I’ll be even busier.

I’d also like to go to my old hometown before the season ends. I want to spend some time there and I’d like to restock my Pagan supplies at a store there that is mostly a hippie type place, but also slightly New Age. They don’t have all the supplies I could want, but they do carry candles, incense, sage bundles, and big tapestry/sarong things with Pagan designs on them that I use for outdoor altars. Unfortunately, the store is only opened during the summer.

I haven’t celebrated my last two Sabbats. I’m really dissapointed about that. I’m hopeful that I can still celebrate Midsummer — ablbeit late. There was a different ritual that I wanted to use to celebrate Beltaine, but I never got around to it. I don’t usally have spoons to do Sabbat rituals without assistance anymore, and finding a time when Phire or SJ have the time and energy at the same time that I do is difficult sometimes. It’s been even more difficult lately.

I was supposed to visit family in Florida, but wound up not going. The airport was a disaster that I just don’t feel like writing about right now.

I haven’t been journaling much lately, either.

While I’ve done some other stuff (like read), I’ve been doing a lot of other stuff lately. I finished the two non-credit courses online that I was taking. I got good grades in one (84%) and great grades in another (98.2%). I’m really pleased and proud of myself. I wouldn’t have done as well as I did, though, if SJ hadn’t helped me a lot.

I got a decent amount of housework done, but there is still more to do.

I think that’s about it for now. I’ll try to post more often, but no promises. It depends on what I can do and when, and on how much “real life” stuff takes precedence.

I’m Grumpy (Mopey Rant)


I feel guilty for whining. I’m over the worst of my cold by far, but it just doesn’t want to quit. We managed to pay off a big bill entirely this month, which is great. Phire is officially into his trial period at college and doing well. And I didn’t have to go to the hospital over this cold, which is great. We also have food and plenty of it — not something to sneeze over. And my college application is completely submitted. My friend submitted my recommendation letter and loaned me the money for the application fee. I’m just waiting for them to receive my transcripts. But I called my high school because I was getting nervous and they said they sent them out. My grandmother bought me a new pair of shoes. We ordered three books this month that I wanted (two were cheap and replacements for copies that got destroyed in a flood years ago — the third wasn’t so cheap but I’ve wanted it for years). Two of them came, and I’m waiting on the third. And I got four reasonably cheap t-shirts yesterday. Three are black, one is dark gray, and I like them all. It’s good to have clothes that fit me and don’t contribute to my dysphoria again. And it’s especially good to have black clothes that fit that description again. I’m also caught up in my college courses, which is really good. Though I didn’t do as well as I hoped in them for the first week’s peer review grades.

But my sleep schedule is screwed up. My med schedule yesterday and today are screwed up. And I have SO FREAKING LITTLE ENERGY! I’m worried about finances and there is a to-do list of 18 things (it started out as 32) that have to get done. Most of them I have to do myself, though a few Phire and SJ can do. And my friend volunteered to do a few of them, which I really appreciate. But I have no energy to do the things that I have to do.

I still haven’t celebrated Beltaine because I haven’t been well enough, haven’t had enough energy, and haven’t had enough time.

I also have been doing VERY little writing. I wrote one journal entry in May, started one other one, and then wrote a grumbly little thing today that was less than a page long and mostly consisted of how much I didn’t feel like writing. I think this is my second or third blog post this month. And I wrote a verse for a project for one of my online courses. But that’s it.

And I also haven’t been able to practice music.

Oof.


First of all, I have a cold. I caught it from my poor father, who drove me to the doctor last week despite being sick. SJ and my grandmother caught it too. SJ getting it doesn’t really surprise me, and I have a compromised immune system, so no shocker there, but my grandmother rarely gets sick. Mercifully, Phire isn’t sick — at least not so far. He has a great immune system, so hopefully he won’t.

I got my grades back from the two peer review assessments for the first week for the courses I’m taking online. While I didn’t exactly do BADLY in the one, and I did well in the other, I did far worse than I expected in the one, and a little worse than I expected in the other one.

I have a doctor’s appointment tomorrow partially for the cold (because my Dad needed to go to his doctor to get prescription medicines for his) and partially because I need to get my script and my referral renewed for my wheelchair, which I thankfully only need to use some of the time. But because my sleep schedule has been all screwed up, I’m worried about making it there on time. I’m also not looking forward to hours of bus rides, waiting for buses, and walking to and from bus stops while I’m sick. I feel guilty because I’m probably get other people sick, and I’m worried because going to the doctor’s office might get me sick with something else — especially since I’m already dealing with a cold.

I still haven’t sent in my application to Berklee because I’m waiting on my friend to send in his recommendation letter for me and loan me the money for the application fee.

I didn’t celebrate Beltaine yet. Initially, I was going to do my ritual for it sometime during the week this week. Then, when plans to go to my Dad’s this past weekend fell through, I hoped to do it over the weekend. Then, of course, I got this cold. So that is delayed until I feel better.

Also probably delayed is the bloodwork I’m supposed to get done.

I had wanted to spend more time with the puppy after CampNaNoWriMo ended. It’s not that I’ve been ignoring her, or anything, and it’s certainly not like she’s neglected. But most of the walking her, playing with her, taking her out to pee and poop, feeding her, giving her water, and putting her to bed at night has fallen on the guys in April. Between CampNaNoWriMo, needing to replace her gentle leader, and those two bad health weeks I had in the middle of April, SJ and Phire have been doing most of the legwork. I planned to change that as soon as CampNaNoWriMon ended. Unfortunately, two days after it ended, I got my cold. By the third day after it ended, I could no longer pretend it was just allergies. On the bright side, at least it waited until after CampNaNoWriMo was over to kick in — and until we had money to buy OTC cold and flu treatments and we could afford bus passes for the month.

I also haven’t been able to practice for a few days and SJ, who is far better with keyboard than I am, hasn’t been able to help for a few days. I REALLY don’t like being sick.

Then, my friend, who has been interested in Paganism for a while, but who is only just starting to get into it now, sent me a text this morning asking for advice on how to do a ritual asap, ideally today. Like the title says, “Oof”. I did tell him that that isn’t the kind of thing that would get done in one day, even if I wasn’t sick. I did give him what advice I could, including some things I definitively don’t think he should do. And I spent the last several hours texting with him about it. I may have managed to annoy him, but I hope not. And I wasn’t trying to be critical, nor to say he shouldn’t do a ritual.

I don’t want to make it sound like it’s all bad. At least the cold is just a cold, not a flu, or an Addisonian related thing. And Phire doesn’t have it. I’m still riding the happiness high in a major way from completing CampNaNoWriMo, applying to college, and and taking the online courses.

Also, I have MAJOR good news. Phire is mostly in at Full Sail University! He started his orientation and month-long trial period today. It’s even more awesome, because he wasn’t sure everything would be finished pending by today, in which case, he would have had to wait an additional month to get started. But it’s done, he doesn’t have to wait, and as long as he does well, and he likes it there, next month he will officially be a student of Full Sail University for a Bachelor’s of Science in Music Business. I’m so proud of him, and so, SO happy. He’s also getting a new computer this week which will make his and my lives significantly easier.

He’s done with the computer for now, and my friend doesn’t seem to be texting me back at the moment, so I’m off to do some of my course work.

I sincerely hope all of you are well and that none of you have colds! 🙂

CampNaNoWriMo April 2015 (Probably) Final Update


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I finally completed my word count goal for a CampNaNoWriMo! I also took a bunch of screenshots for posterity. Hopefully, if I picked the right pictures, you can see that I wrote 10,1027 words for my novel this month. When I validated my word count, their word counter considered it 10,146 words. In the second picture, you should be able to see the bottom of the little “winner” ribbon they stick on your novel when you validate your word count. It took me a while to figure out how to validate my word count, but I finally managed it.

Also, you can see that I only wrote on nine of the days this month. That isn’t strictly true, and my days for writing are somewhat off because for several of the days I started writing on one day, and wrote until after midnight. But when I did that, I still counted my words as being for the day before, since that’s when I started and it was done in one session.

I’m also kind of torn about it. I’m disappointed that  I only worked on my novel for nine days this month. By the same token, I’m ecstatic that I still managed to get it done, even though I only wrote for it on nine days this month. It makes me more confident about being able to do it again in general, and also about being able to pull it off in the future even if I can’t writ for a lot of the days in some of those months.

I’m so happy and excited! I have been tying to do the NaNoWriMos and CampNaNoWriMos since at least November of 2012. And this is the first one I’ve finished. Hopefully, it’s the first of many.

My confidence was starting to get kind of shot where completing them was concerned. But I also have to remember that I started getting sick in 2010 and got gradually worse until 2012, when I got way worse. I didn’t get a diagnosis until spring of 2013. I took longer than that for me to fully understand what my diagnosis meant. And I didn’t get a good endocrinologist until either later in 2013 or possibly 2014. I also didn’t really start getting “well” again until 2014 and it’s been a long, hard, slow road. I’m still working on it, but I’m doing much better.

So it also makes sense that this one is the first one I’ve completed so far. Did I mention I’m excited and so, so, happy? 🙂

I’m looking forward to doing it again in July. July might be a little complicated. I don’t have any doctor’s appointments that month so far, but Phire’s and my anniversary in July. A friend of ours is going to be in the area twice that month, so in addition to the usual visitors, he may be over, too. And, I might have to attend a wedding with him. Also, if I get into Berklee, tuition deposits are due in July, which means that’s probably the month I’ll enroll and start buying textbooks and supplies.

But I’m really looking forward to both July’s CampNaNoWriMo and Berklee, so I’m thrilled.

Also: YAY!!!! 🙂

I Did it! :-)


I finished CampNaNoWriMo! I completed my word count goal! I’ve been trying to do the CampNaNoWriMos and NaNoWriMos since November of 2012, at least. Eighth time is the charm, I guess. This time, at least. AND I backed up my files and validated my word count. I hope to write a more detailed blog post about it soon, but for right now I’m really tired. It also may or may not have to wait a bit because I have a busy-ish week coming up. 🙂

April is Looking Up!


April started optimistically for me. I was looking forward to CampNaNoWriMo, I didn’t have many doctors appointments scheduled, nor anything else complicated. And I wrote a lot for the first few days.

It went downhill from there for a while. I almost had an Adrenal crash, though not quite an Addisonion crisis in the supermarket after running errands all day. I picked a really bad time to go back on Facebook because it kept draining my time and energy. I got into a disagreement with someone on there over something I posted. Unfortunately, it’s something important to me and I tried to discuss it with them. But eventually I had to stop. It was taking up a ton of my time and energy and stressing me out. SJ and I have spent most of the month worried about an old friend of ours who is going through a really rough time. We had no idea because the only way we had to contact him was Facebook and we’re so rarely on there.

The phone company had a computer error and turned off our phones, even though we paid above what we needed to for the payment plan this month. SJ sorted that out. In the gross department, I had diarrhea from the last two weeks in March through the first two weeks in April and I had a really hellacious period. I wound up spending a night in ER due to low blood pressure, headaches, severe cramping, nausea, and slight dehydration. And while most of that rough stuff was going on, I went two weeks without writing for CampNaNoWriMo. I only entered two contests for gift cards this month.

But things really started improving since then. I decided to largely stop going on Facebook until after April, except to check on our friend and to enter contests. I also started cutting out some of my groups and turning off notifications for most of them. When I return to it, I plan on mainly just posting to closed groups, to cause less problems and deal with less time consuming notifications.

I joined enrolled in two courses from Coursera. Coursera offers free courses and many, many subjects from leading universities and colleges. Alternatively, you can pay about fifty dollars and gain a certificate from them.

I got a new issue of The Writer magazine and my mother was kind enough to gift us with more files for the filing cabinet.

I also only have about four thousand words left to write to make my word count goal for this CampNaNoWriMo.

I’ve been practicing music frequently and I’ve been very productive in general for the past several days.

And…drumroll, please…I’m applying to college! I am SO excited by this! I couldn’t have done it without lots of help. SJ and Phire helped and supported me, as did my mother. A friend of ours is loaning me the money for the application fee and letting me pay him back slowly a little at a time. He also stayed on the phone with me while I applied for financial aid and helped me through the rough patches. AND he’s one of two people who is writing me a recommendation letter.

So far, I’ve applied for financial aid, filled out the application, asked for transcripts to be sent to them, talked with my application academic advisor, and written and uploaded a personal statement. I can send the application without them having received my transcripts yet, so I’m just waiting for one more person to send them a recommendation letter and for my friend to loan me the money for the application fee. I think the letter will get written this weekend and I have until May 15th to submit the application. So I should have plenty of time.

I’m applying to Berklee Online, which is the internet arm of Berklee College of Music for a degree in Music Business. I am SO excited! I’ve wanted to go to Berklee for years and I think that now my health and my life are stable enough that I can go. I’m nervous about getting in, but I really, really hope that I do. I should find out towards the end of June or the beginning of July, so I’ll try to update here. Phire is applying as well, so I’m also really excited about that and hoping that we both get accepted. 🙂

I think that’s it for now.