Getting Back In Practice


I haven’t written for CampNaNoWriMo for many, many days. I’m going to try to start doing it again today. They are five days until I can validate my word count if I make it in time, and seventeen more days left to write in the month.

In fact, I also haven’t been doing a lot of the other things I need or want to do.

In some ways, it was being an adult that stopped me for a while. There’s more of that grown-up type stuff I need to do coming up, but a lot of it is done.

Some of it was also just that I wasn’t feeling well. Not sick, really, just not well.

And some was just procrastination and picking a really bad time to do some stuff. Like last week, I started going back on Facebook when I normally avoid it. Although, I do go on to gain more entries for contests. Once or twice a year I go on Facebook for a few days to two or three months. Then real life takes over, or I get overwhelmed with all the drama, or disgusted with all the time I’m wasting, or frazzled by all the notifications, and I go off of it again.

But I’d wanted to check on some people and see what was going on with them. Unfortunately, I got into a disagreement with someone I know on there because of something I posted. It took a lot of time and energy, and was really stressful, especially because it was over an issue that’s personal to me. It still isn’t really resolved, but I just started ignoring it.

But good things happened. Someone donated an item to me that I could really use and I connected with some people I have things in common with, so that was good.

After the fallout from the altercation with that one guy, I decided not to post anything else to my wall for a while. I want to stay a member of the groups that are helpful to me on there, but they are closed groups, so they shouldn’t cause drama. I’m staying off Facebook for now, because it’s taking a lot of time and energy, I have other stuff to do, and so forth. But I also started leaving groups I don’t care about and stopping notifications from most of the others. I’ll still have to do the same thing for likes, pages, everything like that, so it’ll take a while. When I go back to it, I plan to reply when people message me, tag me, or post on my wall, but that’s it. Other than that, I plan to just post in the closed groups I’m a member of. It’ll be hard to do, to get in the habit of not posting, but worth it, I think. Eliminating groups, pages, and their notifications should clear out my feed so that I’m mostly getting updates from actual people I know, I hope. But if even that causes problems, I believe Facebook now has a setting where you can make it so that only you can post on your own wall. So I may do that.

In the meantime, I’m getting back in practice for doing the things I want to do. Or need to do. Last night, I journaled for the first time since the ninth. I knit for the first time since March last night, as well. Today I practiced bass for the first time since March. And today I’m also hoping to do CampNaNoWriMo writing. I also want to work in meditation, chakra cleansing and balancing, and spending time in nature. For the chakra stuff, once a week should probably be fine. Spending time in nature will probably not be every day, though I want to work up to that.

I’d like the other things to be every day, but they probably won’t all be. Knitting will probably slide the most, and possibly bass practice. But I at least want to get back to at least once every three days for musical practice.

After CampNaNoWriMo, maybe I can work on making more of the other things be at least once every day.

So that’s it for now.

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Where I’m At (Witchcraft and General Paganism Edition), Part 2


This is the second part of a post on where I’m at. You can read the first part here:

https://wildwetlandswitch.wordpress.com/2014/09/13/where-im-at-witchcraft-on-general-paganism-edition/

Let’s see, what else?

I generally pray before I eat. Actually, I generally pray while I eat. Even though the prays are brief, I’m generally thanking a lot of deities. And since one of the fun complications Addison’s Disease can cause is hypoglycemia, I can’t always wait to eat until I’ve finished praying. Sometimes I forget. But usually, what I do is this: I try to always thank Gaia and the Christian God, or a God similar to him (that’s another post for a different time), as well as thanking the plants and animals for my food. I also thank the latter for giving their lives so I can eat. If there’s a dead animal, I also thank Cernunnos and The Morrighan. I usually thank Cernunnos anyway, even if it’s just plants. If it’s something that was actually cooked, as opposed to microwaved or a cold sandwhich type thing, I thank Brighid for our hearth fires that allow us to heat our house in winter and to heat our water and cook good, nourishing food all year round. For the past week or so, I’ve also been thanking my potentially new deity in a different set of circumstances. So for some meals I only thank a few of them, and for some, all of them. I know it sounds like a lot, and it kind of is, but it’s also relativley quick and easy to do, and I like to show gratitude for my food. It also helps me slow down and appreciate my meals.

I mentioned that I celebrated the last Sabbat and I’m hoping to celebrate them all.

Since the end of August, I’ve been writing in my dream journal and my regular general with excellent frequency. This is my lasted attempt to journal every day and my most successfull by far. Since September started, I’ve only missed one day — and I picked right up again the next day.

My dream journal is going very well, too. I skip that more days than my regular journal since I’ve been making a concerted effort at both simulataneously. This is partially because I don’t always remember my dreams, partially because I don’t always have time to do both, and sometimes just because I don’t feel like it — usually because my dreams seem long/complicated or I don’t think I can interpret them. I have, however, had days where I talked myself into writing down my dreams when I didn’t feel like it, and I’m always glad that I did.

So far, I’ve only had that happen once with my regular journal. Again, I talked myself into doing it and am SO GLAD I did.

There may be days when I don’t feel like doing either in the future, but I’ll just do what I can to plug through and do it anyway. Both journals are important to my spirituality and to who I am as a person, and I want to keep it up.

I occassionally meditate and cleanse my chakras and do a morning and evening meditation written by Doreen Virtue, who is a New Age author (New Age authors are generally frowned upon in Paganism for being New Age, fluffy, and disrespectful). But I like her and the meditations work very well for me. I don’t want to be disrespectful and I do want to live in right relationship with my Gods, Ancestors, Nature Spirits, the land, and the faeries. But aside from one book that she wrote, I don’t find her disrespectful, and even that wouldn’t be disrespectful as deemed by most people.

I’m not doing the meditations as often as I want. They can fulfill my requirements for meditation for AODA (though I really want to learn discrusive meditation, and it would be good to do for AODA). They can also fulfill my requirement for mental training for ADF.

I ordered two new Pagan books this month. I’ve read one and I’m waiting for the other to arrive. This is HUGE progress. There is a long, long list of Pagan books I want to get and read, and it isn’t even complete. But I’m doing what I can for that, and it’s dependant on finances, which are currently limited for us.

Gaia told me to spend more time with her and more time in nature. I haven’t been doing much of that.

I have been documenting when I do big stuff for Druidry, but not so much the little stuff. Often, I forget, but even when I don’t writing down every time I meditate or such makes it seem more overwhelming than it already is.

I’m Flamekeeping tonight for the first time in a long time, and I want to keep that up.

I also knit sometimes, which is meditative for me and can be part of my spiritual practice, especially when I’m Flametending.

I have a ton of Pagan apps on my phone: Tarot, Runes, Ogham, Crystals, Power Animals, Moon phase calendars, etc. I try to look at my card of the day, rune of the day, the Moon sign, and read my horoscope for my sun sign and ascendant. I try to draw a single card each day for most of the other divination apps on my phone. I don’t always manage it, though I usually at least glance at my card and rune of the day.

Sometimes, though rarely lately , I do a reading using either my phone or one of the physical Oracle Decks we own.

About two weeks ago I set up two outdoor altars/shrines/offering tables. The first is in a private part of our property and specifically for me to commune with Gaia there. The other is under a tree in our backyard and is a more general one. I can still worship Gaia there, too, though the other one is specifically for her. In fact, the second one is where I did the ritual for her the other night.

My friend helped me with them, though there really wasn’t much setup required, mercifully. The first is about six bricks together from a collection we have that was from a one hundred year old building in Ocean City, New Jersey. The second is a plank of wood that I think was part of the house or something in or on it. We set it on four more bricks that aren’t held together to keep the wood from rotting where it would touch the ground. When I’m not using it, we keep three mor bricks on top of it to keep it from blowing away or getting moved.

I cleansed and blessed them both with seawater and sage smoke. I asked Gaia to bless them and asked her to bless and protect the one for her as sacred space, as well as the place, my partners, my self, and all the living creatures and beings on our property. I read “The Witche’s Creed” by Doreen Valiente over both and a prayer of Thanksgiving over the second one. Then I closed the ritual for each. I’m so glad, and  so, so happy that they’re there and it’s done!

Okay, that’s all I can think of right now. But I still want to write about where I’m going, and I might have forgotten stuff. So I’ll try to write a third post including anything I forgot, if I did, and writing about where I want to go.