CampNaNoWriMo April 2015 (Probably) Final Update


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I finally completed my word count goal for a CampNaNoWriMo! I also took a bunch of screenshots for posterity. Hopefully, if I picked the right pictures, you can see that I wrote 10,1027 words for my novel this month. When I validated my word count, their word counter considered it 10,146 words. In the second picture, you should be able to see the bottom of the little “winner” ribbon they stick on your novel when you validate your word count. It took me a while to figure out how to validate my word count, but I finally managed it.

Also, you can see that I only wrote on nine of the days this month. That isn’t strictly true, and my days for writing are somewhat off because for several of the days I started writing on one day, and wrote until after midnight. But when I did that, I still counted my words as being for the day before, since that’s when I started and it was done in one session.

I’m also kind of torn about it. I’m disappointed that  I only worked on my novel for nine days this month. By the same token, I’m ecstatic that I still managed to get it done, even though I only wrote for it on nine days this month. It makes me more confident about being able to do it again in general, and also about being able to pull it off in the future even if I can’t writ for a lot of the days in some of those months.

I’m so happy and excited! I have been tying to do the NaNoWriMos and CampNaNoWriMos since at least November of 2012. And this is the first one I’ve finished. Hopefully, it’s the first of many.

My confidence was starting to get kind of shot where completing them was concerned. But I also have to remember that I started getting sick in 2010 and got gradually worse until 2012, when I got way worse. I didn’t get a diagnosis until spring of 2013. I took longer than that for me to fully understand what my diagnosis meant. And I didn’t get a good endocrinologist until either later in 2013 or possibly 2014. I also didn’t really start getting “well” again until 2014 and it’s been a long, hard, slow road. I’m still working on it, but I’m doing much better.

So it also makes sense that this one is the first one I’ve completed so far. Did I mention I’m excited and so, so, happy? 🙂

I’m looking forward to doing it again in July. July might be a little complicated. I don’t have any doctor’s appointments that month so far, but Phire’s and my anniversary in July. A friend of ours is going to be in the area twice that month, so in addition to the usual visitors, he may be over, too. And, I might have to attend a wedding with him. Also, if I get into Berklee, tuition deposits are due in July, which means that’s probably the month I’ll enroll and start buying textbooks and supplies.

But I’m really looking forward to both July’s CampNaNoWriMo and Berklee, so I’m thrilled.

Also: YAY!!!! 🙂

I Did it! :-)


I finished CampNaNoWriMo! I completed my word count goal! I’ve been trying to do the CampNaNoWriMos and NaNoWriMos since November of 2012, at least. Eighth time is the charm, I guess. This time, at least. AND I backed up my files and validated my word count. I hope to write a more detailed blog post about it soon, but for right now I’m really tired. It also may or may not have to wait a bit because I have a busy-ish week coming up. 🙂

April is Looking Up!


April started optimistically for me. I was looking forward to CampNaNoWriMo, I didn’t have many doctors appointments scheduled, nor anything else complicated. And I wrote a lot for the first few days.

It went downhill from there for a while. I almost had an Adrenal crash, though not quite an Addisonion crisis in the supermarket after running errands all day. I picked a really bad time to go back on Facebook because it kept draining my time and energy. I got into a disagreement with someone on there over something I posted. Unfortunately, it’s something important to me and I tried to discuss it with them. But eventually I had to stop. It was taking up a ton of my time and energy and stressing me out. SJ and I have spent most of the month worried about an old friend of ours who is going through a really rough time. We had no idea because the only way we had to contact him was Facebook and we’re so rarely on there.

The phone company had a computer error and turned off our phones, even though we paid above what we needed to for the payment plan this month. SJ sorted that out. In the gross department, I had diarrhea from the last two weeks in March through the first two weeks in April and I had a really hellacious period. I wound up spending a night in ER due to low blood pressure, headaches, severe cramping, nausea, and slight dehydration. And while most of that rough stuff was going on, I went two weeks without writing for CampNaNoWriMo. I only entered two contests for gift cards this month.

But things really started improving since then. I decided to largely stop going on Facebook until after April, except to check on our friend and to enter contests. I also started cutting out some of my groups and turning off notifications for most of them. When I return to it, I plan on mainly just posting to closed groups, to cause less problems and deal with less time consuming notifications.

I joined enrolled in two courses from Coursera. Coursera offers free courses and many, many subjects from leading universities and colleges. Alternatively, you can pay about fifty dollars and gain a certificate from them.

I got a new issue of The Writer magazine and my mother was kind enough to gift us with more files for the filing cabinet.

I also only have about four thousand words left to write to make my word count goal for this CampNaNoWriMo.

I’ve been practicing music frequently and I’ve been very productive in general for the past several days.

And…drumroll, please…I’m applying to college! I am SO excited by this! I couldn’t have done it without lots of help. SJ and Phire helped and supported me, as did my mother. A friend of ours is loaning me the money for the application fee and letting me pay him back slowly a little at a time. He also stayed on the phone with me while I applied for financial aid and helped me through the rough patches. AND he’s one of two people who is writing me a recommendation letter.

So far, I’ve applied for financial aid, filled out the application, asked for transcripts to be sent to them, talked with my application academic advisor, and written and uploaded a personal statement. I can send the application without them having received my transcripts yet, so I’m just waiting for one more person to send them a recommendation letter and for my friend to loan me the money for the application fee. I think the letter will get written this weekend and I have until May 15th to submit the application. So I should have plenty of time.

I’m applying to Berklee Online, which is the internet arm of Berklee College of Music for a degree in Music Business. I am SO excited! I’ve wanted to go to Berklee for years and I think that now my health and my life are stable enough that I can go. I’m nervous about getting in, but I really, really hope that I do. I should find out towards the end of June or the beginning of July, so I’ll try to update here. Phire is applying as well, so I’m also really excited about that and hoping that we both get accepted. 🙂

I think that’s it for now.

Another CampNaNoWriMo Update


I went from the seventh to the twentieth without doing any writing for CampNaNoWriMo. Fortunately, it’s not as bad as it sounds, since I had a good amount of buffer days built up when I stopped writing. Unfortunately, I had about a week of spare days racked up and then proceeded to stop writing for two weeks.

I wrote again today. One thousand, eight hundred and some words, if I recall — my biggest writing day so far. Of course, I didn’t do much else today.

I’m at slightly over six thousand words today, total, which is about a thousand words over the halfway mark and about one thousand-five hundred under the three quarters of the way mark.

There’s some other stuff too. I practiced bass for at least forty-five minutes last night (though I think it was close to two hours, but I didn’t time it) and at least an hour tonight (again, I’m undershooting). I want to keep better track of the amount of time I practice for.

There’s lots of other stuff I want to write about too, but that’ll have to wait for now.

Getting Back In Practice


I haven’t written for CampNaNoWriMo for many, many days. I’m going to try to start doing it again today. They are five days until I can validate my word count if I make it in time, and seventeen more days left to write in the month.

In fact, I also haven’t been doing a lot of the other things I need or want to do.

In some ways, it was being an adult that stopped me for a while. There’s more of that grown-up type stuff I need to do coming up, but a lot of it is done.

Some of it was also just that I wasn’t feeling well. Not sick, really, just not well.

And some was just procrastination and picking a really bad time to do some stuff. Like last week, I started going back on Facebook when I normally avoid it. Although, I do go on to gain more entries for contests. Once or twice a year I go on Facebook for a few days to two or three months. Then real life takes over, or I get overwhelmed with all the drama, or disgusted with all the time I’m wasting, or frazzled by all the notifications, and I go off of it again.

But I’d wanted to check on some people and see what was going on with them. Unfortunately, I got into a disagreement with someone I know on there because of something I posted. It took a lot of time and energy, and was really stressful, especially because it was over an issue that’s personal to me. It still isn’t really resolved, but I just started ignoring it.

But good things happened. Someone donated an item to me that I could really use and I connected with some people I have things in common with, so that was good.

After the fallout from the altercation with that one guy, I decided not to post anything else to my wall for a while. I want to stay a member of the groups that are helpful to me on there, but they are closed groups, so they shouldn’t cause drama. I’m staying off Facebook for now, because it’s taking a lot of time and energy, I have other stuff to do, and so forth. But I also started leaving groups I don’t care about and stopping notifications from most of the others. I’ll still have to do the same thing for likes, pages, everything like that, so it’ll take a while. When I go back to it, I plan to reply when people message me, tag me, or post on my wall, but that’s it. Other than that, I plan to just post in the closed groups I’m a member of. It’ll be hard to do, to get in the habit of not posting, but worth it, I think. Eliminating groups, pages, and their notifications should clear out my feed so that I’m mostly getting updates from actual people I know, I hope. But if even that causes problems, I believe Facebook now has a setting where you can make it so that only you can post on your own wall. So I may do that.

In the meantime, I’m getting back in practice for doing the things I want to do. Or need to do. Last night, I journaled for the first time since the ninth. I knit for the first time since March last night, as well. Today I practiced bass for the first time since March. And today I’m also hoping to do CampNaNoWriMo writing. I also want to work in meditation, chakra cleansing and balancing, and spending time in nature. For the chakra stuff, once a week should probably be fine. Spending time in nature will probably not be every day, though I want to work up to that.

I’d like the other things to be every day, but they probably won’t all be. Knitting will probably slide the most, and possibly bass practice. But I at least want to get back to at least once every three days for musical practice.

After CampNaNoWriMo, maybe I can work on making more of the other things be at least once every day.

So that’s it for now.

Mixed feelings about CampNaNoWriMo


I wrote 1,114 words last night, giving me a five day buffer and — I think — a total of 4,187 words for this years CampNaNoWriMo for April so far. That also means that after I get three more days worth of writing done, I’ll be more than halfway there. The closest I’ve ever gotten to completing a CampNaNoWriMo was 8,459 words — also with a 10,000 word goal. But I was working on a bunch of stuff then, as opposed to one manuscript.

So before the BIG goal, I have two little goals to shoot for surpassing: 5,000 words (the halfway mark) and 8,459 words (the farthest I’ve gotten before).

Naturally, I’m ecstatic about all of this. And yet.

I haven’t missed a day of writing completely yet, though I did miss meeting my word count goal for one day (though I more than made up for it), and it’s getting exhausting.

Almost every day I’ve finished my writing after midnight. And by the time I save all of my documents, usually in two formats, back them all up, and update my word count on the CampNaNoWriMo webpage, it’s even later than that.

Lots of stuff is dropping by the wayside. I went several days without calling a family member that I should have called sooner. They didn’t seem to mind, and it worked out okay, but I feel guilty about it.

With the exception of one day, my journal writing has been pretty slim. I only missed one or two days of it, but my entries have been short and I’ve left out a lot of stuff I wanted to write about.

I’ve walked the dog again now that we have a new gentle leader, which a dear friend of ours ordered for us, after she ate part of her old one. But I’ve been letting housework slide. I’m deeply appreciate of Phire, who did a bang up job with a lot of housework and decluttering today.

I haven’t been knitting. I started a blanket last year with needles and yarn donated by family and friends. It’s three panels, and I’m on the last one now, but I haven’t touched that panel since March. Knitting is soothing and meditative for me, and I also try to do it as a devotional act for Brighid.

I’m hoping to give the blanket to my mother, and I was hoping to have it ready in time for her birthday, but that’s unlikely, as her birthday (and Phire’s) is only ten days away.

And I think I mentioned in another post that I’ve barely been reading.

I also haven’t practiced bass for at least a week. SJ and I have a system set up where I try not to go more than three days without practicing — bass, guitar, or vocals, though bass is the main thing. But I just haven’t been managing. I love making music and listening to music. I don’t want to forget what I know, and I want to improve and learn new things, and bass will also qualify for the Bard path in AODA, so that’s upsetting.

I’m doing things like balancing checkbooks, budgeting, and paying bills and dealing with utilities companies today, and I’m just taking a break from that to write this. I was hoping to have all that stuff done in one day, but it’s late enough that it looks like it might stretch into two.

Also, my body has decided that today is a perfect day for me to deal with LOTS of pain, for some random reason, so I’m dealing with that too.

I’ll try to get more adult stuff done and then I’ll see about writing some more for CampNaNoWriMo if I can.

CampNaNoWriMo and Journals


This is what eight years of journals looks like^^

Bear with me if that image doesn’t show, and I’ll try to fix it later. I’m writing this blog post from my phone.

I feel like I’m being a boring blogger. Not only is this supposed to be my general Pagan blog — and I haven’t been writing much about Paagan stuff, but I’m also hardly writing about anything besides CampNaNoWriMo and journaling.

Still, that’s because I’ve hardly been DOING anything else except writing — NaNoWriMo, journal entries, and blog posts. I should be happy, though. And I am happy, because I’m getting those things done.

I did do a little bit with Pagan stuff in March, starting my Ancestor journal and celebrating Ostara AODA style.

Yesterday, I only wrote four hundred and eleven words. Actually, when I stopped for the day, I was literally one one short of my word count goal for the day. That was uber-aggravating. So, I opened my word processor back up and wrote another paragraph or two.

So, I did make my word count goal yesterday, but not by much.

So far, my Easter weekend marathon is about 50/50 — great the first day, not great but acceptable the second. We’ll see what today holds. I haven’t started writing for it yet today because Phire’s computer is broken, so we’re sharing mine until we can afford to get him a new one, which may be some time down the road, but hopefully not. And he’s on it right now.

Yesterday, I DID write seven pages and some change in my journal, finishing that notebook in the process. I am noticing a pattern: the days that I didn’t write in my journal, or didn’t write much in it are the days I got the most written for CampNaNoWriMo and vice versa.

My last journal lasted seven months and I started a new one today.

I’m going to try to get as much written today as possible, because tomorrow, I have to actually go be an adult — call the utilities company, figure out our budget for the month, and pay the bills. Maybe I’ll do some dishes too, but that might be reaching a little high, especially because I’m still hoping to write tomorrow, too. Maybe I can delegate the dishes to Phire or SJ.

I still have three days of buffer, but next Saturday is one of the days that I doubt I’ll be able to right, as my Dad and Grandmother are coming down to take us to run errands, which I deeply appreciate. They usually do that about once a month and it makes our lives a lot easier, since we don’t have a car. And it’s good to get to see them. But we normally go to anywhere from three to seven places on those days, so it takes several hours or all day, and it’s exhausting. Sunday is another day that I’m not sure I’ll be able to write, because these days I usually need at least one day and sometimes more to recover from big errand days.

So I’m going to try to build up additional days of buffer today.

I’ve been reading far less than I normally do in April. But that’s to be expected. I should be careful because I get cranky if I go for too long without reading. But I also get cranky if I go too long without writing.

What I’ve been reading the most of is back issues of The Writer magazine. I have about six months of issues that I hadn’t read. At the time it was an annoyance that I didn’t have the time to read them. But it was only a mild annoyance, because the reason I didn’t have time to read them was because we had just gotten our puppy. We were adjusting to having her in our household and she needed almost constant supervision. Now, that she’s older and better behaved (though she still needs a lot of supervision) I actually have time to read them. And the timing is perfect, because it’s really helping me to concentrate on CampNaNoWriMo and creativity.

If I already wrote some of this stuff, I apologize. Brain fog being a thing, I don’t always remember what I wrote before and I don’t really have the time or energy at the moment to double check.

Phire just handed of the computer to me, so I’m off to go write some more. Wish me luck!